Saturday, September 30, 2006

I am adding a new feature to my blog...

Why I Hate Dating...
(Part I)

I hate awkwardness!!!!

Most of my problems with dating stem from this simple fact; I can't even stand to watch other people in awkward situations. If something happens in a movie or tv show I turn away from the screen with a grimace.

For example, take any romantic movie where one person is in love with someone who is no in love with them...I cannot watch someone confess their undying love to someone...I don't care if it is supposed to be funny, I cringe and look away. And I have no idea why, I'm not a sappy or sensitive person, but awkward situations really get to me.

Lets face it, dating is generally a fairly awkward endeavor, at least in the early stages. You're always wondering what to say or do...and what the other person is going to say or do...and later replaying conversations and thinking, why on earth did I say or do that?? And I worry that spectators are watching the dates and thinking, they look awkward together, must be a new couple.

(I blame Seinfeld for that particular phobia.)

I just want to skip past the awkwardness know those village matchmakers that apparently used to set up your whole life for you in advance? Some days that seems like a very good system...

Thursday, September 14, 2006

“Thinking he knows can be a trap. An ex-professor once told him he had a diamond hard intellect and he’d been flattered at the time. Now he considers the nature of diamonds. Although sharp and glittering and useful for cutting glass, they shine with reflected light only. They’re no use at all in the dark.”
(Margaret Atwood-The Blind Assassin)

I worry about that sometimes…that I’m not really as smart as people think I am. For all the test scores and trivia knowledge, have I ever had a truly original thought? I love books of quotations, is this not a sign of mental weakness? I can’t think for myself so I seek the wisdom of others?

So much of my personality is bound up in being, “the smart one”. It was only later in life that I gained enough confidence in myself as a person to ever be called the pretty one. I remember the first time someone treated me like a bimbo and told me not to worry my pretty little head about it. I was flattered.

Am I really intelligent or am I just a good mimic?

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Japan should not renounce the Murayama statement, thereby rescinding their official apology for their actions in WWII.

I realize that it may be a strain on a country to constantly feel guilt over issues of the past, and in some ways its natural to move on...but I don't think they should go so far as "take back" the historic apology.

I feel like Germany handled war guilt and the reconstruction of the national psyche in a healthier manner than the Japanese.

Saturday, September 02, 2006

My mood today:

"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, not small, but circumscribed. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void. "

And yes I know that it is from a really lame sue me...

Friday, September 01, 2006

The back story to this post is somewhat lengthy, but basically my former professor (a German Marxist) sent me this response to an article about the Ant Bully that another former student had sent him. And then I replied. I think it makes sense.

Professor: I am not very interested in this film, but I was surprised to see the graphics on Cuba and Castro and Guevara, I always thought, compared to most other Less Developed countries, Cuba was very good, particularly if compared to Columbia: no street chikldren in Cuba, death at birth rate more or less like in Develioped countries, virtual 100% literacy rate, nobody starving, everybody housed, virtually nobiody dying in hurricanes, in Columbia dozens per month die in political violence for decades now, in Cuba maybe around 10 a year(which of course is terrible, just to compare) Would you not agree with me that one should help Cuba, hurt by decades of sanctions by the US and still providing these socio-economic benefits? Or is there somethuing I am missing here? Wolfgang

Me: On the question of Cuba:

The hostility of the American governments has been used as an excuse to suppress the civil liberties of the Cuban people for 40 years. Anytime someone mentions the repression of human rights and political oppression in Cuba, leftists always blame this on "American imperialism" and "US aggression". As though the US is to blame for the fact that the Cuban people lack freedom of the press and freedom of association. But these repressive laws are maintained by nearly every Communist regime, even those who are not threatened by hostile neighbors.

It is not enough to feed and cloth a population...humans are not merely domestic animals, they deserve more. The social achievements brought about by the revolution are meaningless so long as the Cuban people don't have freedom and dignity, which are necessary for the emancipation of humanity.

The people of Cuba deserve freedom. They deserve the right to travel abroad to visit relatives, they deserve a free press, the right to access the internet without external monitoring, and to watch television without foreign broadcasts first being jammed.

Issues of freedom, democracy and human rights should stand on their own, whatever you may think of US imperialism (which I don't believe is a true factor here but thats another argument). I oppose the diversionary tactics of the Western leftists who point at the social achievements and choose to ignore the denial of basic freedoms.

I believe that the achievements of society are nothing without basic freedom... I suppose that is the core difference between libertarians and socialists...

Remember, a government that is big enough to give you everything you want is big enough to take it away...

Best of luck with your new semester.